SIGNAL EDGE
Issue No. 8 | The Arrival Issue | Wednesday, April 22, 2026
PERSONAL SIGNAL
Two intentions answered, one afternoon.
Fernando and I bought this home in La Mision, Baja California, Mexico last April. We chose it together, the way you choose something you intend to return to again and again. The house has known Fernando, and almost no one else, and now I come alone. That is the context for everything that happened next.
On my way here this time, I asked for something. Not out loud, not in writing; just the quiet kind of asking that happens somewhere between intention and trust. I asked to meet a friend in this community. Someone close. Someone real.
When I arrived, there was a woman walking. I had the windows down for Mr. Douglas, who had his little feet on the window ledge the way he does when the world outside is worth paying attention to. She stopped. He immediately wanted her love, which is how he has always announced that someone is worth knowing. We started talking the way you do when a small dog makes a formal introduction on your behalf.
Her name is Carmen. She has lived two doors down for twenty-three years.
She invited me for lunch. I walked over the next day and her dog Güero came to the door first, met Mr. Douglas, and that was settled within thirty seconds. Over tamales and Mexican coffee, Carmen and I talked the way women do when they recognize each other. At some point she said she had been asking for a friend for her dog. I told her I had been asking for a friend for myself.
We had both been asking. We had been two doors apart the entire time.
I think about this when people tell me that intention is wishful thinking. What I know from my own life is that the asking is orientation. When you ask, you become available. You roll the windows down. You let the small dog put his feet on the ledge and lean into whatever is coming. The asking did not create Carmen. She has been here for twenty-three years. The asking made me the kind of present that could receive her.
That is the whole story. Tamales, Mexican coffee, two dogs already inseparable, and a friend who found me in the place Fernando and I built together, the last place I would have expected, and the only place it could have happened.
THE NEXT LAYER
What having it together actually looks like.
People say that about me. That I have it all together. I want to tell you what that actually is.
It is sitting in my chair in the early morning, in silence, taking in the world around me as the clear observer. Everything still. Everything present. The kind of ease that does not need to perform itself. That is one version of me, and it is real.
It is also me on my knees in child's prayer, body sobbing, feeling the full weight of losing Fernando, emptying completely. Sitting back on my heels with my arms raised to the sky, spent, asking to be filled from pure love and light and whatever healing the universe has left to offer. That is another version of me, and it is equally real.
It is also me standing before my delivery associate team at standup, rolling out our research, watching them become excited about being part of something I know will change the face of logistics for safety, quality, and belonging. Present, clear, certain. That is also me.
All three of those people are the same person. None of them cancel the others out. The woman in the chair, the woman on her knees and the woman at the front of the room are not different versions of having it together. They are what having it together is.
The invitation in this: we have been taught that falling apart and showing up are opposites. They are not. The falling apart is how we become available to the showing up. The emptying is how we make room to be filled. The woman who sobs on her heels with her arms raised and the woman who leads a room are drawing from the same well. The depth of one is what makes the other possible.
FOUNDER FIELD NOTES
Jennifer F. — The Real Signal Edge
She turned around in her seat when we were 13 and said: Hi. My name is Jennifer. What's your name? She had me the moment our eyes saw each other. That was 40 ago, and I have been trying to keep up with her ever since.
Jennifer is what I think of when I think of someone who is genuinely ahead. Not performing ahead. Actually there first. She owned a winery. She bought a house before the people around her had even started thinking about home ownership as something available to them. Almost three years ago she mentioned ChatGPT in conversation. I could not hold onto the letters for the life of me. I had to invent a mnemonic just to be able to say it back to her: golden pretty tits. That is what it took to keep up with Jennifer Feazelle.
She is the one who introduced me to the concept of ride or die. I had never heard it before she used it. There is a story she tells that explains exactly what those words mean, and it is the story I want to give her room to tell here.
Jennifer was running an event at her winery. She was also working a full-time job, which is the Jennifer way of doing things, fully in one life while quietly building another. There was a big summer storm in Virginia. The kind where everything that can go wrong begins going wrong at once. There were details falling apart, pieces that had to come together and were not coming together. Her mom Shirley showed up to help. There was a quick stop for something important, and then the long drive out to the winery ahead of them.
Jennifer pulled out of that stop. She looked in her rear view mirror. Her mom pulled out behind her, without even looking back, without hesitating, without checking the conditions or calculating the risk. She just followed. Jennifer said that was the moment she understood what a ride or die actually is. Someone who pulls out behind you without looking.
Jennifer walks on fire. She is, I am convinced, a spirit guide who arrived in this lifetime in a human disguise. We have time jumped together, which is its own story for another issue. What I know is this: she has been ahead of every curve I have watched from behind, she has shown up behind me without looking, and she called me by name on the first day we met when she did not have to.
That is 40 years of signal, perfectly clear, no edge required.
HEALTH SIGNAL
What anger becomes when you let it finish.
The professor was half right.
I was in college, in the only psychology course I ever took, sitting in an auditorium with more than two hundred other students. He said that anger was not an emotion to let loose. Anger breeds anger. He said it with certainty. I raised my hand.
My mother had shown me something different. She had a hard rubber tube and an old phone book, and when the anger in her needed to go somewhere, she went somewhere with it. She beat that phone book until it came apart and she came apart with it, arriving at the other side sobbing, emptied, present. I grew up watching that and understanding it as the truth about anger: it needs to complete itself. You move into it and through it and out the other side.
The professor heard me out. I do not think I convinced him. What I understand now that I did not then is that we were both talking about different things. He was describing venting, the kind that fans the flame, that retells the story, that keeps the nervous system in the same loop. My mom was doing something else entirely. She was discharging. Completing the circuit. Releasing what the body had already opened.
My therapist Heidi helps me find this in myself. What does anger feel like in your body? She asked me that the way you ask a question you already know will take a long time to answer. We worked on it. Pressing hard against a wall and then releasing. Primal screaming in the car on the way home from things I had swallowed. I read Eckhart Tolle describing ducks, how after a conflict they flap their wings hard, briefly, completely, and then return to gliding as if nothing happened. That is not avoidance. That is completion. That is how they stay in flow.
Then I got a medicine ball. Twenty pounds, solid in both hands. The movement that found me was this: squat down to pick it up, swing it overhead to the full height of who I am, then drive it into the floor with everything I have. Every time I do it I think of Wonder Woman. Not the costume. The stance. The decision to take up exactly the amount of space she is owed, to gather power from the earth and release it through her hands, to transmute something heavy into something that lands with authority.
The science calls what my mother did somatic discharge, the body completing the physical circuit that anger opens. Suppressed anger does not disappear. It waits in the muscles, in the bracing, in the held jaw and the tight chest. The body stays mobilized for an action it was never allowed to take. The medicine ball gives it somewhere to go.
The professor was half right. The other half is mine.
THE SIGNAL STACK
The number — a progress report.
The kit arrived. I did my small part, a finger prick, a few drops of blood collected at home on a quiet morning, sent back in a prepaid envelope. Now I wait.
What I am waiting for is my biological age. Not the number on my driver's license. The number that reflects what my cells are actually doing; how fast they are aging, what my choices are building or costing at the level that does not lie. TruDiagnostic's TruAge Complete test measures more than seventy-five longevity biomarkers using epigenetic science, reading the methylation patterns on my DNA to produce an age that is more honest than the calendar.
Results take two to three weeks. I am somewhere in that window now, checking my email the way you check for something that matters. The biological age number is not a verdict. It is a starting point. A signal. The question it will answer is not how old I am. The question is: what is my body doing with the years I have given it?
More soon. The number is coming.
PASSIVE INCOME PULSE
The story I missed entirely. And what it taught me anyway.
I came across a story this week in a newsletter I follow. It stopped me. Not because I had been watching this unfold, not because I had an opinion ready, but because I had never heard of this brand at all.
Allbirds. Sustainable wool sneakers. A company that went public in 2021 at a valuation of more than four billion dollars, backed by celebrity investors, worn by people who cared about the planet and wanted their footwear to say so. For a window of time they were everywhere, which apparently means they were not where I was. I missed the whole story.
They just sold their intellectual property and remaining assets for thirty-nine million dollars. Less than one percent of what the market said they were worth four years ago. The thing that accelerated the fall was a push into physical retail, brick-and-mortar stores, at precisely the moment that the economics of physical retail were shifting fastest against it. They expanded into the harder thing when the easier thing had not yet proven itself. That is the part that stayed with me.
Here is what I keep thinking about. I missed the rise entirely. I heard about this brand at the moment of its collapse, through a single paragraph in someone else's newsletter. There is something clarifying about that. When the buzz was loudest, I was apparently tuned to a different frequency. Now that the buzz is gone, the lesson is clean. I can see it without the noise.
That is actually the Signal Edge practice in real time. We are not here to catch every trend as it crests. We are here to extract the signal from whatever arrives in front of us, whenever it arrives, and ask what it means for the way we build. The Allbirds story reached me late. The edge it carries arrived right on time.
The signal worth keeping: expansion is not the same as growth. A bigger footprint is not always a stronger foundation. The most durable builds tend to go deeper before they go wider, proving the core before stretching into the harder, costlier thing. That applies to a sneaker company. It applies to a newsletter. It applies to anything worth protecting.
A SIGNAL FOR THE WOMEN WHO BUILT
Building a body that lasts.
After 60, muscle mass becomes the strongest single predictor of longevity. Not cardiovascular fitness, weight, or any marker currently on a standard lab panel. The research is consistent: the women with the most functional strength in their later decades have the most independence, the least disease burden, and the highest quality of life. Muscle mass is the infrastructure of a free life.
The women in this community built careers, companies, and portfolios. The next build is a body that takes you where you want to go for the next four decades. Strength training for longevity is a freedom goal, not just a fitness goal. That distinction matters enormously. A freedom goal means you are building something you will use every single day, for the rest of your life, to do the things that matter most. To carry your own groceries. To walk steep trails. To sit on the floor with people you love and get back up without assistance. To travel without accommodation. To exist in your body with ease, authority, and genuine capability.
The entry point does not have to be expensive or complicated. Weight-bearing exercise in any form, resistance bands, body weight movements, a single piece of equipment you actually enjoy using. The requirement is resistance and consistency. You already know how to build things that last. This is the same skill applied to the only asset you cannot replace.
ONE MORE THING
Signal Circle is open.
In Issue 7, I gave you the name. Today I am giving you the door.
Signal Circle is free to join. It is a membership, a circle of women who are paying attention the same way I am, and who want access to the things I find when I am paying that way.
The things I find do not arrive on a schedule. They arrive when they arrive. A specific object, made by a specific person, in a specific place, carrying a story older than the moment I discovered it. When something reaches me that way, when I cannot stop thinking about it, when the story is too good to keep, I bring it to the circle. Members get access to the purchase link. That is the whole structure. Simple, clean, real.
The first offering arrived through a friend. Carmen has lived two doors from me in La Mision for twenty-three years. She brought me to a store in Rosarito, three levels, curated with intention, run by a man named Fausto and his wife. The kind of store that takes you a while to understand because it is not trying to make it easy.
What I found there stopped me. A garment. Handwoven linen with hand-knotted pompoms in colors that knew what they were doing. It was made by Aztec women as a keeping garment, wrapped at the waist to hold a child close while the mother's hands were free to work, cook, sell, move through the hours that do not pause for love. When the child was put to bed, the garment moved to the shoulders and became a shawl. It kept holding. It just changed what it was holding.
There are five at Fausto's store. That is all.
I am making them available to Signal Circle members first. Next week I will tell you the full story.
Stay curious. Stay in charge.
Holly
Everything in Signal Edge reflects my own research, curiosity, and lived experience. I am not a licensed financial planner, certified tax advisor, registered investment advisor, or medical professional. Nothing here constitutes financial, investment, tax, legal, or medical advice. It is personal opinion, shared openly and honestly from one thinking person to another. Please consult qualified professionals before making decisions about your money, health, or property.
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